Today I got dressed for school and I was really happy with how I looked, more so than usual. I looked in the mirror and my first thought was “I look good today!” Now my self esteem isn’t horrendous but most days it’s like “eh it’ll do”
As I was walking to school after my dad had dropped me off, I was outside for all of three minutes, in those three minutes two guys had honked their horns at me and the second made weird suggestive faces once he had gotten my attention. To which I rolled my eyes and went back to looking at my phone to share my wonderful experience with my bf. Once I had crossed the road and gotten away from that creep, I began to feel uncomfortable. My previously positive thoughts about my looks were clouded with doubts.
“Is my skirt too short?”
“Maybe I should cover my thighs with my bag”
“Is anyone else looking at me funny?”
And once I realised what was happening, I got angry. I made myself go back to how happy I felt when I looked in the mirror this morning.
And as if that wasn’t enough, while I was walking down after meeting my bf we walked past a bunch of builders. Now I’m not gonna lie, I was nervous. Maybe not nearly as much as if I was alone, but nervous nonetheless. Which sucks, that I can’t even walk to my own school in broad daylight without feeling self conscious.
But I had faith, my boyfriend was right there so surely nothing would happen right? Nope. I walked through this group of builders with my boyfriend walking behind me, apparently one of them was staring as I walked by and had the AUDACITY to tap my bf’s arm and make a suggestive face. THE AUDACITY!!
Like honestly guys get a fucking life. I’m not here for your entertainment. You’d think they had never seen bare thighs before jeez. This isn’t my first rodeo, it’s happened before but never so many in such a small space of time. All of this from start to finish probably happened in a 20 minute period?
Anyway to say the least, I’m disgusted. And guys, honking your horn at a lady won’t make her jump in your car and suck your dick, kay?
Until next time